Xanax For Sale

Clive. Gael. Sacha. Daniel. (the only blonde in the bunch, but do I even need to explain how he makes a speedo look good?) (and yes, I know I obviously have a thing for broody boys with accents)

Is it just a chromosomal thing for girls to just wake up and think "Shoes! Shoes! Today we will buy shoes!" Or does this happen to both genders?

but even though I'm surrounded by people, I often feel utterly and completely alone.

Tonight I'm getting my hair chopped and donated. The fun part is that I have no idea what I'd like my hair to look like afterwards. Stay tuned for pics. After getting my hair cut I will inevitably start sobbing and will have many margaritas with a girl friend (boys don't understand). My freakish skin is apparently allergic to my new shampoo, hence the breaking out. The irony is that I liked my old shampoo better anyway. If Atlanta really does get covered in ice overnight, I'll still have to go to work (even if campus is closed). Does that mean I can show up in my pj's?

I have a stupid habit of putting other people's needs before mine. Okay, maybe my therapist(s) wouldn't use the "stupid," but it's the root of a lot of problems right now. I overcommit myself to others, I exert too much energy doing things people don't appreciate, and I care way too much about things I shouldn't. I'm then mentally and physically exhausted from all that, and the cycle continues. And I know it's not other people's fault - not at all. It has everything to do with me and my unrealistic expectations of people, my need to satiate others to make me happy, and still not being able to say "no" quite enough. The irony, of course, is that I always end up unhappy with the situation. Honestly, I'm just burned out trying to make everyone happy. Everybody wants something from me, whether it's time, a shoulder to lean on, do this, fix this... which I normally love doing for my friends and family, but I just feel like I've got nothing to give now. I'm torn in so many directions, and the constant expectations from people are draining. Yeah, I think "stupid" fits the bill perfectly.